Promises To My Future Dominant

To my future Dominant: I promise to take care of myself just for You. I find it to be a very hard thing for me to do these days as my heart has grown weary. I find it harder and harder to be without a Dominant in my life. I feel naked to the world, alone, vulnerable and scared but this I shall do out of my dedication to you. I hope someday to make You as proud of me as I have wanted for years. I know that I am not ready for You yet, and I promise to everyday get on my knees and be thankful, and ever mindful that today may be the day that You enter this grateful sub’s life, and honor her with Your wisdom, guidance, Dominance and care. I will strive to then better myself by “Just doing what I am told” so that I may have privilege of Your love, acceptance, and pride.

There is a part of me that questions how healthy it is to crave someone’s love and pride so much. Why can I not be happy with just myself anymore?  Why do I struggle with my submission and wrestle with the beauty in a Dominant and submission relationship? Why does the confidence in my submission wane so at times? Is this part of the process my Master (or Mistress)? Am I supposed to be shaken so at times so that I may always be close to a “humbleness of being” that is essential to my submission? Please, do not take long in finding me.  

I think some of this is derivative from the several Dominants that I became involved with on-line and although I did as I was told, I was denied the pleasure of knowing that I pleased them. I am sorry for having spent my submission in unwise ways at times. There is exception to this however,  one very special man. One man whose e-mails stating how proud he was of me sustain me at times and very much these days.   Here are some of his words to me:      I am really pleased with you. You are a very submissive person - and you enjoy it. So far I am satisfied with you, you are one of the best online subs I had. You did everything I asked you to; even the ***** *****. That pleased me a lot.
I was pleasantly surprised with a ***** **** and I am very satisfied you fulfilled my orders to the max. I especially enjoyed the ****** you made while *** ******. You are a good and true sub.
You should work on concentrating better, and be more clear in report writing.

I promise to only communicate with those that I know will help me in my submission and not take more from You; only to develop and progress my essential submissive well-being to make me worthy of You, Master.

I shall continue with exercising so I not only look appeasing and so that You find me desirable, but so that I am also able to endure with grace, and dignity any positions that You command of me.



With Love, Honor, and Obedience I commit myself to these promises and to continue adding to them.